while perusing the Houston Press last night, we discovered that Jennifer Knapp will be going on tour with Derek Webb! she's been out of commission for awhile, and I'm SO looking forward to getting to see her play the day after my birthday. as I said earlier, the lady writes songs that reflect mostly unspoken prayers of mine. Bethy, remember when you sang Faithful to Me in the talent show at Rockcleft?! am I remembering that right?!
this is a song off of the Kansas album that has a deep memory for me. there was a point where I felt I'd really come a long way, but had gotten my nets totally tangled in a dating situation that was making me crazy. I was so confused and felt so out there, completely exposed and floundering. I had the clear sense that it wasn't right, but couldn't seem to keep from being involved... the end result being my increasing discomfort and, like I said, craziness. I put this song on while I was in my car and before she got to the second verse I was bawling my eyes out. I pulled over onto the shoulder of the road and sang the rest of the song, crying in the ugliest way. then I called two friends, confessed my craziness and fear of being alone, and asked for prayer to turn away from things that aren't good for me. it was a big deal, let me tell you. those kinds of prayers and choices were crucial for me, because only by learning to say no to certain things I'd let myself grow accustomed to was I able to break free and be ready for so much... well, so much better.
and this one is just great, that's all. it's off of her next album, Lay it Down:
bring it, Jennifer! now I need to brush up on Derek Webb's last album... I really liked The House Show, which is the album I know best, but his latest one is more electronic.
-m.y.
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Ooh, I like her! I think I was a little too young when these came out, but I remember that first song. I really appreciate how honest you are--I've been experiencing some of the "I should just settle for this guy even though he's not great because I'm afraid I'll always be alone" feelings, and it really helps to hear that I'm not alone in thinking that, but that God wants more for us. Love you, Luci Bell!
You are correct about Rockcleft! It feels like a zillion years ago. My faves are "Martyrs and Thieves" and "Hold Me Now." Have fun at that show--I'm glad she's coming around again. On a much less spiritual note, I got Elton John tickets today.
In keeping with your less spiritual note, we're at a Tegan & Sara concert. The unborn, her daddy & I are checking out many questionable haircuts between sets.
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